The refresh button

So after placements, I finally managed to get my dream job.

All those agonizing rounds, meeting with people, i did get it, on my own merit. I can be proud to say that they did see something in me which i didnt see in myself. I honestly still don't.

Okay enough about the update on what i'm doing.

Today I'd like to talk about hitting the refresh button.

So recently i've been not writing, and writing is my only source of sharing my thought process with the world.
So what's been going on, what have I learnt since the horrible birthday I had.

Interestingly enough, I see a change in me. This all started with those 20 days alone to myself, it did give me some time to think about what I want and what I don't and what still bothers me.

Somehow someone planted this weird thought in me, and trust me i've been thinking about it ever since.
Why does so many things happen to me?

Maybe I am just imagining it happening, and its not really there. If i were delusional....... I'd still think it was real, so am i delusional? or is this real? baah! this thought has been eating me up for a week now.

There is an easy way to get rid of this thought.. but as rules go, i can only advice people on how to do things, me following them is a totally different task.

Have you ever refreshed your page because it stopped working or it started having a glitch of a sort? Started it all over, because you couldnt continue?

Life is much like that. To stop these kinds of thoughts, and to stop all the bad things.. you need to refresh yourself, and let go of your past.

It sounds easier than it is doing, because letting go of your past, means letting go a part of you, which has made you the way you are right now.
Sometimes the past becomes a safe place, no matter how bad it is.
It's easier to be who you know yourself to be, rather than being someone you wouldnt be sure of.

This sounds confusing but its true.
People go to therapy because they feel depressed, sad , lonely.
Therapists say the same thing. Past is what makes us who we are.

To support myself with an example, lets talk about chocolate -
So suppose if you decided to buy milk chocolate and you forgot to eat it, so this chocolate melts and when you finally decide to eat it, you think its too molten and you decide to refrigerate it. The chocolate would interestingly enough not retain its shape, because we did not handle the chocolate properly.


Our memories is like chocolate, we need to consume it when we have it and let it go, and let it be the past.

We will get newer chocolates as days go by, and sometimes even better chocolates than before.


So if you dwell on your past, today is the perfect day to hit the refresh button, and go buy yourself some nice chocolates,
which reminds me I need some chocolates,
Have a beautiful day guys