Reality check!

They say you meet one person in your life who teaches you a very important lesson.

A little more than a year ago, I was open minded, believed in the concept on one true love. I was naive about the idea of people being bad, and i believed everyone, I mean Everyone deserves to be loved.

If I liked someone, i was willing to go that extra mile, change my very being just to suit to their needs and necessities. Someone just asked me "If I wear my heart on my sleeves or what?" (Thanks Ronica).

I think I did for the longest amount of time.

Human beings were meant to be in pairs, however, we have become such singularly independent people.

So when I met this person at a party, I wanted to take it forward. I wanted it to be my forever. I saw myself build a life with the person. I think I got lost in those thoughts too much.

I've never really given a thought to things not working out. If i have something I wanted to work it out. I guess I did for the longest time.

This person changed me, changed the essence of me. Made me look at life differently. A 22 year old had to suddenly grow up, and grow out of naive thoughts. It was my first very severe relationship, and it will probably be my last.

I just dont feel the same way around people, I know it's not been long, but earlier I did believe anyone can be loved, Now, I just feel like I have no love left in me.

I see people , I think, wow if this was me one year ago, things would have been so different. There would be me making an effort to flirt, making an effort to woo, and what not.
Now, I talk to them, and move away, because I know it is doomed.


I guess thats how I have become, and its this freaking life lesson.

Some call this growing up, I call this ruining someone.

Why would someone want to steal the idea of having something special in their life.


And thats the important lesson I learnt.


Human beings are essentially selfish creatures, If something does not meet their needs and wants , they will never want to adjust.
In school , college, whatever kid phase we have, we are protected.

We have this veil around us, this idea of unrequited love.
It takes a very important person in your life to come and destroy that something for you.
This reality check about what is important, what stays , what doesnt stay. You learn that you cannot control things.

This is reality, and I thank you for providing me with this.

Now I will never ever love the way I did before.

I will never be completely vulnerable to anyone ever again, I would never choose someone over everything else. I will never trust anyone so easily again. I will stop believing in the best of people.

This is important to survive, I know.

So I will tuck my heart into the deepest corner of my body, and I will let someone discover me, layer by layer.

Yeah I want to feel like myself again. But then again, I have to change myself in order to adapt to this new reality I have been presented with.

I guess I will learn.


Till then, Peace out!