You scare me

I wish I could easily express what I feel,
Easily speak to you, like you speak to me.
Make you understand how you make me feel,
Make you see what I am now without you.

I am in awe of you,
the essence of you,
the way you make me feel safe,
when the rest of the world has always been a threat.

I remember the day I met you,
I was so nervous, I told you things,
Things I would never say to people.
You were kind to me.

I saw you for the first time that night,
It felt real, it felt so different.
I didn't know you,
But I felt like I belonged.

I was confused by how you could be,
Be the person I needed at that point,
change, adapt , be different, yet be mine,
when you are with me.

You have such a big heart,
always loving , always giving, always caring,
I wonder if you let people take care of you,
treat you the way you should be treated.

Your absence makes me feel empty,
Your presence makes me overwhelmed,
I need you to see this side of me,
To understand how I am.

I feel a pinch of jealousy,
It doesn't make sense I know,
but I wish I could sweep you away,
and speak to you any time I wanted to.

For now, I will just stick to this,
hoping I will one day,
Have the courage to make you see.