Winter is cruel for break ups

Yes! I said it! Thanks Myna and Debo for lending me this one.

So yes, I am single.

I wake up every morning, put a rod inside cold water, let it heat for an hour before decided to bathe myself.

So I wake up at 4:30am during morning shifts, and 8:30am during evening shifts.
Night shift I still need to see myself do while im single.
Well, just a few days to go for that.

I feel super cold at night, which is BTW destroying my sleep. Gone are those days when I could rub my super cold feet against someone who had warmed them up before (yes it's an evil thought, and then I wonder why I am single *giggles*)

First few days, I did not let myself be alone. To be honest, I knew what scared me but I wasnt ready to face it. Finally when I was alone I felt it. The constant longing for cuddling, and a warm body next to you.

In summers we tend to shove people away. In winters, we need the warmth.

I probably sound very shallow when I say this. But I just miss the cuddles. The person too probably, but if you have someone to make this winter (which somehow seems super cold) go by without shivering, well... I think you are the luckiest person in the world.

This winter has not even started yet, and I feel so cold all the time. Is it the anxiety? Or is it just that someone is compensating for the very warm winter last year? (Very funny weather wizard.. very freaking funny!)

This winter is going to be very long, and I have a feeling I will end up binge watching re runs of certain shows, and eating popcorn, and cooking for myself, and working.

Well looking forward to this winter. I hope it will end soon.

God Damn It Winter! Why you so cold!